The Last Leaf on the Tree

Recently my father was diagnosed with advanced stage 4 lung cancer.  The impact that his diagnosis has had on me has been somewhat stunning and in order to help me cope, I've decided to write about it.  For those who may read this who know me, know that I am an open book about my life.  I think that openess began years ago as a teen and has become a tool that has helped me handle my life.  I don't know what this blog will become.  Maybe just a personal journal of my feelings about the pending death of my only living parent.  Maybe it will be about being the sole surviving member of my family unit, which is having quite the impact on me.  Maybe it will be about facing my own mortality, or my newly developed fear of becoming a lung cancer victim myself.  Whatever it will be, I know it will be helpful to me through a very difficult time.  Loss of loved ones is not new to me.  Death has not been a stranger to my family.  I know grief very well.  I am different now, though.  Older and wiser maybe, but my own body and mind are going through "the change" and I don't know myself as well as I used to.  I'm hoping that this little blog will help me find myself again in this ball of emotions that I live with nowdays.  We will see.