Grief can be incredibly dibilitating. It fascinates me a little, quite frankly. The old saying about death and taxes is so true. Death is the one thing not one of us is immune to, therefore we all experience loss in our lives. Friends, family members, beloved pets, odds are you are going to lose someone you love in your lifetime. Grief will at some time or another be a part of our lives. I do have friends who have not yet experienced the loss of a significant loved one, but most of us probably have. Some maybe many times over. Just as there is no escape from dying, there is no escape from grieving.
I've said before that grief is very personal. While all of us will probably experience grief in our lifetime, we will all handle it differently. There are scores of books written on the subject of grieving. Someone even came up with the five steps of grieving, although not everyone goes through them. I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I've always done so. I honestly don't know how to be any other way. Others hold tight to their emotions, never show a tear or quivering lip. Many are somewhere in between. There is no right way or no wrong way to grieve, just as long as you do. Grief is important in healing a broken heart. Someone very close to me, who I have rarely seen cry told me the other night that he feels like if he cries because someone has died, he is in some way disagreeing with God's big plan. He can't cry because he is afraid of offending God. I find that to be so beautiful, even though I don't feel the same way. I think crying is cathartic and necessary and when I shed tears for a loved one, I don't think God is offended by that.
I'm a big fan of the tv series "True Blood" because is is great escapism. There are lines in that show that sometime just knock me out of my seat they are so funny, like "don't go all lost in nature retarded on me" or "I'm a fairy, how fucking lame". In one recent episode, two characters were talking about how to go on living after someone they loved died and one said "you just keep breathing, baby". I loved that. We just keep breathing. We just keep taking one step at a time. We just get through this day before thinking about tackling the next. We just keep allowing ourselves to have the days you want to scream. We go back to work, go out with friends, look for a little joy in each day. We know that while no two grieve alike, we all are brothers and sisters in heartache and we are not alone in our experience.